In 2010, I had a mental breakdown. In December of that year, I called the EAP at my company, totally clueless and asked them to get me an appointment with a therapist. And that started my therapy journey. My first
Therapist #6 – Starting over
The Anxious Scroll
I saw a thing on a Vlogbrothers video recently, where Hank was making his usual Friday video for John and it was 2am and he was doing a lot of what he called “the anxious scroll“. I feel that so
The Moody Blues
Note: this is not about the English rock band So most of you who’ve been around for any length of time know that I have bipolar disorder. I’m not quite true Bipolar I, but it’s more intense than Bipolar II.
The Happiness Trap – Week 7 – SMART Goals (ugh)
So I set (and meet) goals all the time. This week the Happiness Trap wanted me to think about SMART goals, and I (and every other corporate employee in America collectively) cringed. For those who don’t know, SMART goals (“Specific,
Therapy in 2019
My therapy appointment this week consisted of talking about: how fucked we are by climate change how infuriating it is that we’ve known that this was coming since the 70’s and nobody did anything about it except kick the can
ACT and thinking about Values
So for the last six weeks or so I’ve been working through the ACT introductory program by Russ Harris called The Happiness Trap (note that it’s on sale right now, so if you’ve wanted to do this program, now’s a good
Ramblings on Madness
I lived a lot of my life on 4 hours or less of sleep, for weeks on end. I would go months in a hypomanic binge, then crash into depression and force of will myself to keep over functioning. High school was
Anxiety Hunger Trick
I have major issues with anxiety sometimes. Often, when I get really anxious, I am repulsed by food and don’t want to eat. This is a major issue if I am lifting heavy, since I want to build muscle, and
Rewriting my inner narrative for 2014
Putting this below a cut, so you don’t have to read it if you don’t want to – this is me talking about, thinking about, and deciding to retell the narrative I have about my body. If you are uncomfortable
Skills and Stress
As evidenced by a high blood pressure reading at my most recent doctors appointment(s), I’m stressed. This is nothing a) new or b) abnormal, especially with a job in a corporate office. I’m working on my stress-relieving/coping skills, and finding